I did it again.
I got myself convinced that I live in HGTV world, where all home improvement projects are done in 50 minutes (tops), and end up perfectly. With that schedule, I should have been able to whip Barefoot Cottage into shape at least a week ago.
I forgot that on all those shows there is an entire crew working off camera, getting things done. I also forgot that those shows are shot over a much longer period of time, and we only get to see the exciting stuff. They don't show the sweating and the grunting and the boring fussy work.
Today was one of the days you come across during any project when everything seems to go wrong. The paint needed to dry longer than I wanted to wait. The battery for the drill was drained aaaalll the way to nothing. I realized I had missed areas that needed wood filler.... AFTER I had started painting. Sanding dust was everywhere, despite all the sweeping and wiping I had done. Never mind that I could have sanded better in the first place.
I could feel myself getting more and more stressed. I was tired, I was worried about getting everything done, I had that awful thought of work tonight, you need to rest bouncing around in the back of my head.
So I did what any sensible woman would do. I took a nap. Yes, you read that right. I took a nap. I needed it, and I couldn't really accomplish much going the way I was. All that was happening when I kept pushing was I was getting more upset and rushing more. Then more mistakes would happen because I was stressed and rushing.
I set my alarm, thinking that I would sleep just long enough for the drill battery to charge. Instead, I fell asleep and napped so well that I hit the snooze button several times. When I woke, my attitude had changed.
There is no rush. There is no expectation that things will be perfect. I'm going to enjoy working on the projects I have going. They are going to take as long as they take. I am not going to fuss over mistakes that are only going to be noticed by me.
I thought about just taking the rest of the day off, but I do have some things that must be done over the next 2 weeks. So I will probably be heading out again a little later to at least throw another coat of paint on things. The big change is in the attitude. I'm no longer rushing, I am trying to use my time wisely.
~...And that's all I have to say about that...~