And forget not that the earth delights to feel your bare feet and the winds long to play with your hair. ~ Kahlil Gibran

Thursday, April 21, 2011

On Hold

I have been trying to figure out what "happened" to me.

I used to be passionate about being "green". I used to be passionate about "prepping". I used to be passionate about planning the garden, mapping out what would go where and how much it would cost. I used to be passionate about my writing, spending hours playing with how words can be strung together in so many different ways. I used to be passionate about keeping house, and providing a wonderful home for my family. I used to be passionate about.... so many things.

Lately, though, I am having trouble tapping into that same passion. Oh, I still care. I still do the things I think are important. I still recycle, and buy second-hand. I coupon like a madwoman. I have my garden, and I still scribble away in my spare time. I keep composting, and fussing with my crafting.

It just feels, I dunno... flat. Like there is a barrier between myself and the excitement I used to feel about these things.

I keep looking for inspiration. I search blogs, I read books, I go out and breathe the fresh air... I am trying to find my way back to the excitement I used to feel. I think I will probably find it again eventually. I hope so. Until then, I am just... on hold.

~and that's all I have to say about that....~


Frugal Down Under said...

I feel like that too sometimes. But sometimes hanging out with someone makes me feel excited again.

I just had couchsurfers that made me smile. They stayed for about 10 days and they brought me joy. I think I get so caught up in the day to day routine that I forget to be spontanious and do something different.

Maybe doing something different or hanging out with someone who makes you feel free and alive for a few hours might spark you up.

Thanks for this post.

Toriz said...

Had my hubby help me with word verification today, because I just wanted to say...

Hang in there. You'll find your spark and enthusiasm again. Just don't force it. Continue with the things you know are right, and one day you'll be reminded of why you were always so enthusiastic about those things!

Wendy said...

I think it's just the time of year. It's hard to be excited about being all low-energy and "green" (i.e. thinking about growing things) when it's still freakin' cold (and snowing? Seriously?!?) outside.

I think you'll find it sometime around the Summer solstice ;), and then, the strawberries will bring you back. Until then, just breath ;).

Lisa said...

Your mojo must have run off with mine!! It has clearly been AWOL at this house for sometime. Maybe it is just residual stress from school.

Here's hoping the excitement comes back to both our houses!

e4 said...

I'm right there with you on this one.

Partly I feel like I've learned most of what I need to know. Now it's just a matter of slowly working through the big stuff as limited time and money allow.

Partly I don't find the blogosphere as rewarding as I used to. Other people have made much more persuasive arguments than I have, and the things I was talking about have become a part of the public consciousness.

And partly I just don't have the ability to do as much as I used to. At least for now.

Like you, I still believe all the same things. I still try to do the same things. I guess I just don't have as much to say about them.