Normally, I love playing the "living frugal" game. I love the challenge of re purposing things I have, of growing a good portion of my own veggies, of finding great deals through Craigslist and thrift stores. Normally I love to go grocery shopping with a fist full of coupons and watch the total go down.... down... down when I check out. I am never ashamed that most of our clothing is from thrift stores, or that I have never owned a "new" car. I don't mind doing things myself or doing without all together.
I have never wanted to be a "consumer". I don't like the idea of going through life like a brainless Pac-Man, munching up all the goodies that came across my path. I always figured that having a rather low wage was a way of making sure that I didn't fall into the trend of mindless spending. Besides, the jobs I really LIKE don't pay very well. It worked out all the way around.
Lately, though, it just seems like a lot of effort. Mr. Barefoot had his hours cut at work (the economy strikes again!), so his cash flow is less than normal. My job continues to cut benefits and freeze wage increases, all the while telling us we should be glad we have a job.
I know that in a couple days or weeks, I will look back at this post and think that my hormones got the better of me or something. I know that, given time, I will find the game of frugal living fun again. I will walk out of the grocery store with a big grin because I won the game once again (or at least beat my high score). I will find some amazing deal that perfectly fits our life and dreams. I will sit up all night figuring out how to get the most bang for my buck, and giggle with glee when I figure out how little I can get by on.
But today it's just a lot of hassle.
And that's all I have to say about that....