I definitely give myself a B+ for effort, but somehow my Grand Master Plan isn't working the way I had hoped. The Plan clearly states that I am to work like mad while building skills in the canning/cooking from scratch/self-sufficiency area and learning to live on just Mr. Barefoot's income. It just keeps falling apart on me, though. I can't seem to keep all the balls in the air at once.
I keep hoping that somehow, if I keep trying really hard, it will eventually fall into place for me. The thought has occurred to me, though, that I might be doing something wrong. I feel like that fly that keeps bouncing off the closed window in an attempt to get outside, totally oblivious to the open door not two feet away.
What am I doing wrong? Is it that I am taking on too much at once? I don't get it. Really, how hard can it be to learn to live on one income, be totally frugal, cook meals from scratch, keep a clean house, manage the family finances, raise two Sprouts, and work one full time and two part time jobs? I am sure there are plenty of women who can do it.
I sometimes watch Jon and Kate + 8 at work. Talk about crazy! Kate is raising two 6 yr olds and 6 two year olds, and still manages to buy local AND organic AND keep a totally immaculate house. Talk about something guaranteed to give me an inferiority complex!
I just can't see how I am messing up. Well, that isn't true. I know that I could spend less time here with you all. I could spend my time at home doing more housework. I could ask the family for more help in watching the Sprouts so that I could get quality sleep and therefor be more productive when I am awake.
I just wish it wasn't so much work to get where I want to go, I guess.....