And forget not that the earth delights to feel your bare feet and the winds long to play with your hair. ~ Kahlil Gibran



Friday, February 22, 2008

Burnout

Nothing is really wrong, I am just tired and burned out. Even my days off seem full of things I need to do that aren't necessarily pleasant, and I am getting frustrated.

Maybe it is the weather. I am tired of it being cold, of spending all my time inside. I am tired of keeping the blinds down for the little bit of extra insulation they give. I am tired of the kids being cooped up inside and getting into things because they have too much energy.

Mr. Barefoot has been very helpful, taking care of laundry and dishes, taking the trash out, cleaning the apt. I am gratefull, because I can't seem to summon the energy to even care if we live in a pig sty.

Mr. Barefoot leaves for CA in May, and I will be taking time off of work then to stay home with the kids. I am hoping that will rejuvinate me a bit, but it seems so far away. Three months? Can I make it so long?

I try to comfort myself with thoughts of my garden this summer, of letting the kids play outside, of all the wonderful plans I have made.

It's not working.

10 comments:

Lynne said...

Sounds like the Minnesota-too dark-too cold-doldrums. It's a tough time of the year. Get your seed catalogs and sandals out.

Lisa said...

{Shoving cheesecake into the router!} You know, just yesterday I was thinking about May, too! In my case, it is because my oldest daughter will be graduating from college. Then she needs a life plan. She doesn't know what she wants to do (except maybe go to grad school) but she hasn't taken her GREs, applied to any school, or have the money. She has no idea where she wants to live or any clue about a job.

For me, May is coming on way too fast!!

I guess it's all in the perspective.

whimsicalnbrainpan said...

Spring is taking forever to get here. Is it just me or has February seemed to have lasted forever?

jenny said...

HAng in there Barefoot!! Those Minnesota winters can get hard in the last couple of months!! I'm with you, though, I'm getting tired of being cold and keeping the curtains closed and I just want to throw open those windows and smell lilac wafting into my bedroom window... Oh Spring!! Hurry and get here! Barefoot needs you!

Kati said...

There IS a reason folks have refered to february as the "longest shortest month of the year". For all that it's a day or two shorter than the rest of the months (even in a leap year) it DOES take forever to pass. I keep looking out the window to remind me that spring IS on the way. I just wish it'd get her faster. *grin*

I'm completely understanding your burn-out right now. I'm at a point (in good part because I'm still fighting this cold) where I just want to curl up in bed & sleep for the next few weeks. Wake me up sometime in April, tell me I've got the job I've been waiting for, and I'll get back to life. But for now.... Sleep is what I want most. *smile*

Maybe treating yourself to a bouquet of flowers would help???? Try hyacinths. They smell fabulous. Or tulips or daffodills for the appearance. Anyway.... I hope the doldrums go away soon, and you feel back to yourself!

barefoot gardener said...

Thanks all for the encouragement.

And Lisa, that cheesecake was delicious!

jenny said...

Here's something that might cheer you up-- An AWARD!! Come and see! :o)

Lisa said...

You are welcome for the cheesecake! I just posted the recipe over on my blog!

Kati said...

There's also an award waiting for you at my place. *grin* I hope you're having a fantastic weekend!!!!

Catty Ax Lady said...

It must be a February thing...it's all over the place. Hopefully the days of March will at least bring something, like, I dunno...sunshine?!?! That would be excellent!

I agree with Kati...maybe bring some fresh flowers home for the kitchen? Or a new potted plant? Something to bring some semblence of spring into the house?