And forget not that the earth delights to feel your bare feet and the winds long to play with your hair. ~ Kahlil Gibran

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

Whining and Crying

Yup, I am feeling sorry for myself lately. I don't know, it might be the season or the lack of sun and outdoor exercise, but I am just tired. I feel cruddy. And that makes me irritable.

It is so easy to get angry when I feel like this. I am overwhelmed by all the work that needs to be done. I hate not having a routine. The house needs to be cared for, the kids need attention, I need to work, the holidays add their own brand of stress, there are irritable and thoughtless people everywhere (due to the holidays). It seems everyone wants a piece of me, and there just isn't enough to go around. I have so many things I want to do for me, so many things I want to accomplish, and somehow the days just fly by without it ever getting done.

But, I have to deal with the truth that most of this is my own doing. I am the one who had the baby, resulting in the continued need for me to work overnights (daycare costs are crazy). I am the one who bullheadedly resists changes in my eating and exercise habits that would almost assuredly give me more energy. I am the one who puts all the pressure on myself to always do better, to do more.

Not that it helps much to beat myself up, either.

Anyway, that's about all I have for today. Sorry it isn't too fun.


Lisa said...

I think we all feel like this from time to time and the holidays always makes it worse! So, know that you are not alone in all of it. Give ourself permission to let some thing slide (like the for me!) and only do what's really necessary! Ratchet back on menu options, decorating for the holidays, gift buying/making, whatever.

Boy, I sound like a shrink, don't I? Mostly, I'm just trying to justify my own survival plan for the season!

Kati said...

Awwww. I hope things lighten up for you soon. (Of course, Christmas WILL be over in just 1 more week, so there is that.) Sending (((((HUGS)))))!

Deb said...

Big hugs to you BG, I know just how you feel. This time of year, with the darkness and cold, is an added stress.

One consolation: The sun has already started setting later! But it's still rising later in the morning.

barefoot gardener said...

Ladies, you are all fabulous!

Thanks so much for the kind words.

Gina said...

I hope you find your energy again with the return of the light. I can empathize with much of what you are saying.

Many hugs.